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  • Two books for the price of {N}one!

    What is Malmaxa?

    That is a remarkably difficult question to answer.  Malmaxa is my vision of a perfect world, filled with imperfect people.  Malmaxa is my Philosophy, couched as Epic Fantasy.  Malmaxa isn’t poetry, however a little free form poem I wrote captures a few of its most essential elements.  The poem appears below.  Perhaps it is first proof of my claim that Malmaxa is like nothing you’ve ever read…

    ~ Malmaxa ~
    ~
    ~ How would a just world be? ~
    No rich, and no poor.
    No government, and no governed.
    No served, and no servants.
    No clergy, and no lay.
    No owner, and no slave.
    No one able to force you to their way.
    No one to prevent you having your say.
    In two words, no disparity.
    ~
    A just world might seem harsh.
    Death would be an end, and a new start.
    Cherished symbols, would be etched in flesh.
    There would be war, with no victory.
    Neither peon, nor royalty.
    Wealth, yet no poverty.
    Farmers, but no famished.
    ~
    A just world is a world where
    loving family are all around.
    Where to be free, we must be bound.
    Where children are safe to play.
    Where people may move, or choose to stay.
    Where cruelty exists, but is held at bay.
    Where none are forced away.
    Where character is held in high esteem.
    Where we all must fulfill our dream.
    Where while lineage means everything,
    it means nothing too.
    Where we must be who we are,
    not who our parents were.
    Where coins are bartered,
    they are not spent.
    Where prophetic dreams,
    from the Gods are sent.
    ~

    A “free” offer.

    Is any offer ever really free?  Not in my experience, however the one I’m making here might only cost you your time.  Your time… the most precious commodity any of us possess.

    We all like to receive something for nothing, yet on that something we generally place little value.  After all isn’t something we get for nothing too often worth precisely what we paid for it?  Okay, stage set, here is my offer…

    Two books, for the price of {N}one.  If you subscribe to Amazon Prime you can check out Beltamar’s War for free, that’s the “none”. Otherwise you have to buy, that’s the “one”.

    But that’s only one book!  Why does my offer say two books?  I am quite proud of saying what I mean, and being mean in what I say. {Or is that “meaning what I say”?}  So yes, I do mean two books for the price of {N}one.  How do you get the second book? Simple, by wanting it.  Once you’ve read Beltamar’s War you’ll know if you want to continue reading the tale.  If you do, then all you need to do to get the second book in the series, is ask for it.

    And how do you ask for it, you ask?  I’m glad you asked!  Post a review on either Amazon or GoodReads, reply to this thread, and tell me how to find your review.  While I ask you to be as honest as you’re able, I make no stipulations on how you rate the work. Replying here gives me your email address, I’ll check out your review, and I’ll send you a Kindle eBook version of Malmaxa II – The Pilgrimage as soon as it completes the editing phase.  Currently that should to be in August 2014.

    Beltamar's War
    Amazon Kindle
    Beltamar's War
    Paperback

    And thus you’ll have two complete books for the price of {N}one!
    This offer will expire, so please act now.

    As an additional incentive, you’ll also have the second book in the series in your hands for at least 30 days before it becomes accessible to the public.

    Still not sold on a potentially zero cost item?  You’re a person after my own heart!  Don’t do anything at all until you decide Malmaxa is for you.  But how can you decide that?  Hop on over to the sample, right here on my blog, and start reading.  The browser you’re using right now is all you need.

    However, before you start reading, be warned.

    {You knew there had to be a catch, didn’t you? There isn’t.} Malmaxa is not what it seems.  It is complicated.  It is metaphoric.  It is foreign.  It is harsh. It is forgiving, and unforgiving.  It is unique.  Malmaxa is quite literally like nothing else you have ever read.

    One of the things I can’t abide is the statement of opinions as facts.  But didn’t I just do that?  I said, “Malmaxa is quite literally like nothing else you have ever read.”  Yes, I stated that as a fact, and yes, I stand behind it.  Read Malmaxa, see the words between the lines, and compare it to any other work of any kind you’ve ever read – you’ll find differences both dramatic and subtle.

    Thank you for your time. Should you take me up on this offer, I hope that not only does Malmaxa raise questions worth pondering, but that you also enjoy my literal world. ~ Charles

  • Black Elks Speaks

    “History is written by the victors, not by the vanquished.”

    Rarely do we have an opportunity to view history from the perspective of the vanquished.  “Black Elks Speaks”, by  John Neihardt, gives us another window through which we may look at the past.  Neihardt’s window shows us a completely different view of history.  A view in which honor and dignity belongs not to the victors, but to the vanquished.

    “Black Elk Speaks” grants a Lakota medicine man named Black Elk a voice, and every reader an opportunity to revisit the past.  Be warned that this is not a pretty past, it is a troubled one, but one from which each of us can learn a great deal.

    Black Elk has a powerful voice, and Neihardt’s work lets us hear it.  Listen carefully and you’ll hear the rustling of the winds, you’ll see the symbols he sees, and you’ll understand that deep down, Black Elk was simply a human – just like you or I.

    Black Elk, was one of the vanquished.  As a youth, he survived the Battle of the Little Big Horn in 1876.  Fourteen years later, in 1890, he managed to escape death at the Wounded Knee Massacre.  Neihardt’s work is presented as a narration of Black Elk’s words, it includes but is not limited to these incidents.

    I have long held that there are two sides to truth.  “Black Elk Speaks” is the other side of the truth Americans generally see.  Through Neihardt’s lens the glorious past does not look as glorious, it looks downright shameful.

    What is “Black Elk Speaks”?

    It is not some fanciful romanticized Cowboys and Indians tale of the sort on which I was raised.  It is another version of the truth, one in which an honorable, dignified, and ancient culture were systematically cheated, misled, murdered, and ultimately destroyed in the name of western progress.

    It is a powerful revelation of how misuse and abuse of power inevitably results in tragedy.  It is a tale of rampant greed allowed to go entirely unchecked.  It is a tale of a government spurring its people on, allowing them to ride roughshod over those who get in the way of their vision of progress.  It is a tale of symbolism misunderstood.  It is a tale of tragedy.

    Is “Black Elk Speaks” a fun read?  Absolutely not.  It disturbed me deeply to learn that, in regard to US History, I had never been told the whole truth.  Equally disturbing is the realization that came with this knowledge, that many of the supposed truths I had accepted were so badly biased toward one side that they amounted to outright lies.

    Why read something that isn’t enjoyable?  Where do you derive enjoyment and satisfaction, from learning, or from being blissfully unaware?

    If we can’t learn from the past, then we should hold no hope for the future.  Black Elk Speaks grants us a glimpse of a past in which many mistakes were made.  It really is a learning opportunity for the future.

    “Black Elk Speaks” is not a “story” or a “tale”, it is another peoples’ truth.

    My further thoughts.

    Black Elk’s version of history differs substantially from my romantic childhood visions of the glorious Wild West, in which the Indians were the villains and the Cowboys the heroes.  My apologies to all Native Americans, please bear with me for a moment.  We have learnt a little of dignity in the last 40 years, we’re starting to understand that terms people find insulting should not be used.  But we still have a lot to learn.  We need to do more than not use derogatory cultural terms, we need to stop believing them.  A substantial part of that disbelief is readily available within “Black Elk Speaks”, which shows us the human side of those we are so willing to dehumanize with derogatory labels.  Once we realize that people are people are people, once we begin to understand that we are all the same on the inside, once we learn that we all have similar aspirations, once we are able to tear off the labels and look at the individuals…  Then we begin to realize that the world is a world of we, not a world of me.  Hopefully we also begin to realize that dignity is not granted by our discarding offensive labels such as “indian”, it is granted by the way we act towards the people we so labeled.

    While we cannot make right the wrongs done in the past, we can learn the other side of truth.  Are knowledgeable people less likely to repeat past errors?  We can only hope they are.

    My exposure to “Black Elk Speaks” distressed me sufficiently to prompt this tweet.

    Western civilization
    is a culture of conquer, and claim,
    everywhere it rides is thunder and acid rain,
    theft,
    without conscience, or shame.

    Who holds honor, the deceived, or the deceivers.

    Where lies shame?  With those whose ancestors faced a ruthless foe and succumbed, or with those whose ancestors were ruthless and destroyed?

    I think human nature encourages us to believe we are honorable, and that our heritage is honorable.  Sadly this is often not the case, {In my  case, my ancestors displaced the peoples of southern Africa.} yet when the evidence shows otherwise, we close our eyes.  We’re good at finding excuses and exemptions for our poor behavior, or for poor behavior exhibited by others that benefits us.

    However when we’re faced with the very real suffering that such behavior inevitably causes, then we start to think that perhaps things are not quite as just as we held them up to be.  That is what I felt in “Black Elk Speaks”.  I believe Neihardt’s work is the very real memories of one man, as told to another.  This isn’t a fictional story, but a translated memory of the events that shaped a person.  Black Elk was actually there, physically present at some of the brutal massacres perpetrated by the US military.  Yes, the author acted as intermediary, yes there is the potential for translation errors, and yes, understanding the symbolism of a culture foreign to your own is very confusing.  However none of those factors matter to me.

    Black Elk was a man, I am a man.  Black Elk wanted a life for his family, I want a life for mine.  Black Elk expected to be treated with dignity, as do I.  We’re all just humans, as humans have been for thousands of years, and as we’ll probably continue to be for thousands more.  Yet to this day distrust exists between the various sub-species of human. Our behavior toward those that differ from us is as repugnant as the behavior of those who virtually destroyed the Lakota sub-species. The lessons in Neihardt’s work are just as applicable today as they where during those tragic times, let us learn from them.

    Black Elk uses symbolism to illustrate his vision of past and future. Unfortunately, as a westerner to whom his culture is no longer accessible, I feel that I miss a great deal of what the symbols he invokes represent.  However that does not in any way detract from the power of Neihardt’s work. Black Elk’s symbolism gives us a glimpse of a deep understanding between man and nature, so deep as to be unity.  Black Elk does not separate and hold himself aloof from nature. Perhaps in Black Elk’s mind the bonding force between man and nature is spirit.

    In western European culture we take great pride in how our spirit remains indomitable beneath the elemental forces of nature.  In Black Elk’s culture, and within the symbols of it which Neihardt’s work presents, I sense an entirely different outlook.  In Black Elk’s vision of the world nature does not attempt to dominate man, thus there is therefore no need to man to be indomitable.  Only when man no longer hears Nature’s call is there reason to fear nature.  In Black Elk’s world nature encompasses man within its benevolent protection.  I see the escape of Black Elk’s people beneath cover of a blizzard as an example of nature’s protection.

    Why do we westerners make the mistake of thinking we can dominate nature?  “Black Elk Speaks” brings home to me how the Lakota people never held this view.  I wonder how it is that our modern, technologically advanced society has forgotten things an ancient culture knows?

    As I said, I’m of western European origin, which means some of the symbols Black Elk considers obvious are not obvious to me at all.  However, simply because we don’t understand symbolism does not make it any less symbolic.  Though the symbolism of a different culture is difficult to grasp, it is still worth making the effort to understand.  Cultural symbolism offers us insights into why people are the way they are.  Ultimately what we uncover, is that people are people no matter who they are.

    “Black Elk Speaks” gives us a glimpse of an ancient culture that is no more, washed away by what we so self-righteously assume is the progress of the western world.  The western world is not the only viable model for successful society, think on that the next time you hear unsubstantiated headlines designed to make you do anything but think.

    Black Elk Speaks brings home the cost of “the right of conquest”.  The vanquished lose everything, while the victors gain everlasting shame. Shame does not lessen with the passage of time, it waits, biding its time until something uncovers it and demands redress.

    Additional reading material on some of the topics covered in this post are available below.

    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_G._Neihardt
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_Elk_Speaks
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_of_the_Little_Big_Horn
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wounded_Knee_Massacre

  • Time

    A friend recently asked me, indirectly, how I like to spend my time.  The actual question framed was this, “I must ask though, why don’t you enjoy being outdoors as much as you used to?”

    Why don’t I enjoy being outdoors as much as I used to?

    I love looking at beautiful things, provided I am in the company of people I like. There is something about beauty that demands it be shared.  Time fleets away, when we’re young we mistakenly think we have an unlimited supply of that most precious thing. With each passing year we realize more that our time is finite, and we refine how we are willing to use it. Work begins to take far more than a just share, exhaustion another, duty another, all these voracious consumers of time hungrily eat away at our days and nights. What is left over, is all we have left to spend. Since we have so little we must become discerning. My choice of purchase with my time, is for the personal. Feelings and words shared with those we care about are far more precious to me than the most beautiful sight in the world, perceived alone.

    In my life I have seen many beautiful things, I’ve been to many amazing places, and I’ve seen more of the seven wonders of the world than many have, or ever will. How do my memories of those places and sights play?  They are all filled with the memories of those with whom I shared the sights, and those with whom I shared the sights feature more prominently within the memories than the beauty of the places themselves.

    Yes, beauty does lie in the eye of the beholder, but beauty demands to be shared and if it cannot be, I think beauty is somewhat lessened.

    Is beauty perceived alone as beautiful as beauty perceived together?

  • Imaginary Friends

    A poem by my favorite youngest daughter, Julia.

    ~ imaginary friends ~
    ~
    It’s where the path ends,
    And the trees start to bend
    You will find me here
    with my imaginary friends.
    Deep in a wood.
    the trees start to talk,
    the flowers start to walk.
    Only here will you find
    behind the vines
    the friends I gladly call mine.
    ~
    I may be told to grow up.
    To forget this silliness.
    But,
    In my life I have never met a human
    as kind as a tree.
    One that smiles brighter than a fairy.
    Sings with more soul than a nymph.
    never have I met a better trickster than a satyr.
    ~
    If to grow up means to forget,
    To leave behind
    Then I will always have my
    imaginary friends.
    ~

    {I threatened to steal it and use it in my Fairy Tale, A Crystal Tear, should I ever finish it… I might still.}

  • Tripwire

    A poem by my niece, Bronwyn, who I am sorry to say I have never had the pleasure of meeting. Perhaps one day I will be so lucky.

    ~ Tripwire ~

    I grasp for memories as they fall before me,
    Like grains of sand too small to see.
    Little things now forgotten,
    Oh whatever could they be?

    Steam blocks your face,
    I cannot see
    Whether or not you look at me.
    I find it odd but say nothing more,
    ‘Cause you’re closed behind that door.

    The maze I’ve built around my mind,
    Guards me from clear thought.
    With layers wrapped in meaning,
    But too obscure to unbind.
    Where do I reside in my mind?

    Tears come too fast for my liking,
    But I shed them with a smile.
    They betray my weakness,
    But also my pride.
    Because I gave my tears a name.
    They are called “humanity”

    I’m not witty or clever,
    Nor light as a feather.
    I’m not gentle, nor meek,
    More like a freak.
    I view the world as a two-sided mirror
    Not blind to the pain and horror.

    I count my blessing
    And mock those who don’t.
    I accept those around me,
    Whatever floats their boat.
    I prefer the cold of reality
    to the solidarity of the mind.
    And whether friend or foe,
    I treat you in kind.

    Smiles that cut.
    Words that bruise.
    What has anyone got to lose?
    “An eye for an eye.”
    That’s what they say.
    Will it save anyone at the end of the day?
    Smashing glasses, breaking plates
    Heated words and twisted fates.
    Pains that run around in circles.
    Lies that cease to have an end.
    I can no longer see around that bend.

    ‘Tis no secret of mine, I swear,
    That I wander without a care
    Going left or going right
    I wander on my hands at night
    I close my eyes and see the world
    Dancing feet that never twirled
    Catching clouds inside my fist
    Such thoughts I cannot resist
    Bleached tears adorn my face
    I cheer for those that lose the race
    Crying second, laughing first
    Nothing seems to quench my thirst
    None too far do I see
    For all the others ahead of me.
    ~

    I hope you enjoy Bronwyn’s work as much as I do. While you’re here, look around, other poetic pieces are strewn among the chaff.

  • The Mistress of the Maze

    Ariadne, at the glorious age, of ten days…

    The Mistress of the Maze
    The Mistress of the Maze
  • Fears

    ~ Fears ~

    My greatest fear is injury,
    not an injury to me,
    but to others who I touch
    in deed, or word, it matters not
    nor whether the hurt is real,
    or simply the unheard song,
    of an unseen soul’s appeal,
    every injury, is real…
    even if it is only in a
    dream.

    The things that make me beam
    the little things, of which I dream
    the unseen sound of souls that sigh,
    the clear essence of two souls that cry
    tears that start their path as joy
    wend their way through guilt
    and by path’s end, are never shed.
    True love lives on, it is never
    dead.

    No worry that we can’t walk back,
    can’t turn about,
    can’t find that track,
    our footprints fade,
    they must,
    dark dreams crumble into dust,
    face our fears, face the front
    walk toward a future bright
    walk together, in each others
    light.

    Wonderful memories, illicit,
    delightful dreams, explicit,
    our memories may never fade
    though some cut deeper than any
    blade.

    The path we walk this way,
    would that holding hands we may,
    as friends fingertips do touch,
    jogging the others memory to breathe,
    that their hearts beneath such love
    don’t crush,
    where we are today…
    is a far better place, than
    yesterday.

    Rather than dwell in errors past,
    let us form a friendship,
    that will
    last.

    Eternity awaits, my dear,
    and yes, I will take you,
    there.
    ~

    I hope you enjoyed this poem. If you like lyrical literature, please try Beltamar’s War. I can promise you it is nothing like anything you’ve ever read, and I would really appreciate your support.

  • Beltamar’s War. Re-Release!

    If you’re book reviewer I’d like to hear from you. If you’re a book reviewer who enjoys complex, thought provoking works like The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R Tolkien, or The Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan, I’d really love to hear from you!

    Yes, we’re all busy so how will you know if my work, Malmaxa, is for you? Easy, simply read the sample available right here, right in your web browser, right now.

    One of the nicest things about being an independent author is that we need never be content with our own words.
    -versus-
    One of the worst things about being an independent author is that it is very difficult to know when our own words no longer require refinement.

    I self-published the first novel in my series, Malmaxa, in June of 2012. Though I have been fortunate enough to garner good reviews, I’ve personally never been happy with it. It just wasn’t the best I felt it could be. So, with that in mind, I scraped together the money to have the work professionally edited. I engaged the fine folk at Warneke Reading for this task and have spent the last couple of months implementing their excellent suggestions. Ed and Natalie went far beyond what I felt was due. I say, without reservation, that the work they have done for me far exceeds the worth of the money I paid them.

    Naturally, during my implementation of their edits, I re-read Beltamar’s War. That was a mistake for two reasons.  One, I’m a man well past middle age, brought up to believe that men should not cry…  Two, I realized I am not happy with my own writing, and I doubt I ever will be. And thus the purpose of this post…

    Very soon I’ll be re-submitting the latest version of “Malmaxa I – Beltamar’s War” to Amazon. I’d love to build up a head of steam by getting the work into the hands of reviewers before I do so. Are you a reviewer interested in reading Malmaxa before it becomes available in its newest incarnation?  If so DM your email address, along with your preference of Kindle .MOBI or .PDF, to me on Twitter.  You can find me as @CGAyling, and yes, I do follow back. If you’re not on Twitter, you can contact me by replying to this post.

    But be warned, Malmaxa is not what it seems.

  • Birthday wishes, from an unknown soul.

    A poem written by an unknown soul, for our precious daughter Julia, who turns 15 today.

    ~ For Julia ~
    May Julia be happy and bright
    From this morning to this night
    Let her happiness last all year through
    With all the things in her heart
    That are meaningful and true

    What a joy and pleasure
    As there is nothing better
    Than your little girls love
    Which should always be treasured
    Now
    And forever

    Wishing your little girl the best day and a very Happy Birthday!

    +++

    ~ For Julia ~
    And a poem from a man she knows,
    her father, who loves her so.
    Every word of this is true,
    and so I cast them,
    from me, to you.
    ~
    Julia, who so seldom cries,
    thoughts within her heart, she hides.
    Shows the world her pretty, smiling face
    and to her family, has never brought disgrace.
    She can’t abide unnecessary silk, and lace,
    embraces Buddha in her dreams,
    and won’t fall for silly religious schemes.

  • Why do Independent Authors Need Honest Reviews?

    Genuine people who are willing to take their time to write honest reviews are all too hard to find. Reviewing is a thankless task. Yes, the reviewer might get a free book, but for the amount of time they spend that can’t be considered compensation.

    Sadly, honest reviewers seldom publish reviews on works they dislike. Why sadly? Because in the Amazon age we are inundated with 5 star reviews that almost invariably purport to love the works of whatever author they are supposedly reviewing. There should be balance in all things. To expect everyone to love your work is a pipe dream.  Yet this seems to be the case – especially in the so-called “reviews” posted about independent authors’ works.

    Independent authors need honest reviews more than they need fabulous, yet fake ones. If we are lucky enough to get any reviews at all, we really need them to be honest. Why? For a number of reasons:

    Because…

    • Honesty really is the best policy.
    • We learn more from adversity than from success.
    • We deserve a level playing field, and so do our readers.
    • If your readers actually like your writing, they’ll ignore bad reviews, or laugh at them, and who doesn’t need a good laugh?
    • People naturally root for the underdog, and bad reviews can make you the underdog.
    • Honest reviews help authors improve their skills.
    • They help readers find books they will probably enjoy, and save them from wasting their time on books they won’t.
    • Positive reviews point out our strengths, and encourage us to play toward them.
    • Negative reviews highlight our weaknesses, and show where we should strive for improvement.
    • If our writing is really as atrocious as genuine bad reviews indicate, then we probably shouldn’t be publishing. Either at all, or until we’ve substantially improved our writing.
    • Pats on the back don’t propel you forward, they hold you back. Especially when those pats are leading us to buy into the delusion we’re good at something when we really aren’t.
    • Potential readers often look at reviews before deciding whether to buy. If they read a glowing review, then buy the book only to discover it is a pile of garbage then every review they read later is tainted.

    So you see, there really is no such thing as an honest review that is bad. Honest reviews either promote our work, or they help us improve it.

    We independent authors already have a well-deserved reputation for producing writing that falls far short of anything published by a traditional publishing house. The more “great” reviews that promote sub-standard work, the worse this will be for all – writers and readers alike.

    I take my hat off to real reviewers everywhere.  I’ve written a couple of reviews myself, and I know just how difficult it is to capture the essence of a work without spoiling it for the readers. In case you’re interested to read a couple of those I’ve written, here are two: Godspeed, by February Grace.  The Sowing, by Amira Makansi.

    If you’d like to read reviews written about my work, well you might find the ones I particularly like here.

    But the real bottom line?

    Don’t waste your valuable time reading reviews at all.  Don’t let someone else tell you what you’ll like and what you won’t.  Instead of reading flagrantly positive reviews from questionable sources you should never trust, read the free sample every single reputable publishing system provides. Make up your own mind about the quality of the writing.  You’ll be giving the real underdogs, namely independent authors, a chance by doing so.  You’ll be glad you did when you uncover a gem in the midden {yes, you may have to wade through a lot of excrement, but that will make the gem that much more beautiful when you find it :)}.

    And now, let me put my words where my mouth is… a sample of my first book is available right here, right now, right in your browser, completely free, with no download necessary, and no troublesome returns either.

    By the way, if you’re a reviewer I’d love you to look at my work with as critical an eye as you wish.  I am nearing the end of implementing edits on Beltamar’s War right now and would love to send you a fresh off the editing block copy in the electronic medium of your choice, PDF or .MOBI {Indeed I’ve just taken hours of that editing time to post this.}  If I can tempt you to review me, please visit [Reviewers], where you’ll find information on how to contact me.

    Further thoughts on authors like Ben Coulter

    …and his ilk.  Those who compound the problem of blatantly biased reviews by going to extreme lengths in attempt to silence anyone who might give them a bad review, thus ensuring they never get bad reviews.  And when they do get bad reviews, they then go to extraordinary lengths to discredit such reviews.

    What sort of extremes? Well, read about Coulter’s behavior here.